ADEQ2 JGN GABRA NK GROW YE...

i woke feeling sooooooooo erm...airhead..from the time i woke up i was like cursing my heads off becauseee im am sooooo turn off by the fact that I! have to work on weekends...and as u can guess i was in morning shift...i was even trying to coax myself bythinking positve e.g."lahh pagy habis cepat..."but then i will start thinking negative e.g. "ah ye dahlah turun train kena naik bukit!memang kalau kaki aku tak terpuus satu hari pon dah mmg nasib ku rasa!!"yah soo dats wad i felt in the morning tau...then in the train...i got this feeeling dat someone stared at me...must be bewildered cause i look like a zombie..if i canfreeze time i will literally sleep in the train man..i juz wanna my beauty sleep!!is that sooo wrong..??let me emphasize...WORKING WORLD IS NOT SOMETING TO LOOK FORWARD TO AITES...so adeq2 treasure these moments of studying peacefully in school...even though underage but still...

WORK WAS CRAPPY as usual...buttt by the end of the day,i manage to update my charts on time!!i can even do the shift intake output calculations alreadi!!whooohhooo im sooo proud of myself...but still dere is still a lottttt of rooms for improvement in terms of bein effective...besides that im am SUPER DUPER GRATEFUL TO HAVE "Z" as my preceptor..shes soo understanding lah..i nearly shed a tear expressing the stressfulness of bein a newbie staff and the pressure from the ward...i knowwww i can be such a crybaby n whiner..but it is stressful seh for a first timer...and she mentions dat she loves me for expressing it out..but she also advises me that sometimes i can just express wad i feel...especially when it comes to anger...hmmm dat part left me question mark alll over my face but ahhhh wad d helll it does not matter cause at least shes listening me out....hmm..

i was bloghopping until ive read his blog...i wonder y am i still curious about his life???he thinks ive move on...hmmm..one thing for sure im just nt ready yet..but i still will sincerely love him as a fren n nothing more...if he can justtt tell me by lifting up his smoochy lips den perhaps the situation will be different u know...oh well...at least i know ive made an impact in ur life dats gd enuf after wad u did to me was a total UNFORGIVABLE act for a guy okie u B****!u deserve the ('___SHIT U___') FACE evrytime u look at me..hehehe..wel fyi those were the days when i call u a freaking corward n anak makkkk evrytime ur name was mention.. those were the days that i will bitch bout ur every movements...those were the days when i told how ugly u are to my frens when u get a praise for bein wad???cool??hmm...(*__*) ..and when shitz happen to u rite i will be like "padan muka..tu lah sakitkn hati aku lagy ambik kau obat!"den i will start saying bout my preception of karma!!hehehe revenge is saaaaaweeeeeeeett!!!okie i know ive said enuf...mai memang part gini HIDUP!!!those were the days when i was still in love wif u okie..finally ive admit it.. hapi?i bet noo cause its a little too late isnt it...

well besok afternoon shift sooo im hoping for NO ADMISSION cause i totalli forgot wad to take..hehehehe..well ive been in morning shift okie..i hope my room is full booked..i hope the patients are english speaking and ambulating...i don care if u ar soo goddamn acting like a prick but as long u just mind ur buisness & it will be a win2 situation for the pt n me...soo doakan gue!!amin...